Confessions from a Reverend

Thank you for being a pain in my *ss!

Thank you for teaching me that even though I am holy within I still act human…Thank you for teaching me that being human still means I hold judgments; that being human still means Ego attempts to teach other’s lessons for me vs through me…Although at times it does feel like an enlightened learning lessons that I will teach you value within yourself and that you don’t need me.

Thank you for reminding me that my tough love hurts at times and although you may not see the blessings right now, the unfoldment has already begun to help heal you of other wounds that never closed.  Not everyone can handle L.E. or Military tough or a diamond in the rough as tough love, angers and hurts  put a different force behind your actions to motivate you.  I stated, “I am a horse of a different color” (Wizard of OZ) and my ministry doesn’t need to look like anyone else’s.

The first I ever heard about using anger to motivate me was through Anthony “Tony” Robbins in 1998.  This is my reflection as that is exactly what did it for me in this stage of my life.  I decided I was no longer the door mate, I claimed my Strength, my Power and it pushed me forward full throttle.

Thank you for reestablishing that you don’t always make sense and now I know I am no longer alone in feeling down in myself about not being a perfect human.  Limitations are in us all…It’s how we use our limitations to rise above the madness.

Thank you for teaching me that I can love someone as a friend and not really need them in my life as I discovered your journey would put mine off track.  You made empty promises and I reflected those right back to you.  We would make plans and then you would go a different direction-so I did the same to you.

Thank you for teaching me how to be more honest, to myself, as I discovered it was easier to hide from what I felt and you in turn felt confused, abandoned and betrayed at some level.  I attempted to establish limits and boundaries and consequently, you internalized those differently.

In reality, I wasn’t honest with myself, my intentions and I didn’t establish better confirmation that I was seeking clients and not friendships.  My advice as a friend or being a minister is typically always the same with a few variations.  You stated your concerns, asked for help, but desired free advise not really friendship in my eyes.

We started out having the same conflict and the resolution never transpired.  There were greater forces of other people’s judgments on you that I didn’t see in the beginning.  I was angered by those judgments from others that were quite, subtle and lead me into another chain of events of judgment from others about my business.  Here I thought I was standing up for you, allowing you to be who you were in that moment in time I had no judgments, only love for you as a person.  It did me no good, to stand up for something that you didn’t care about in yourself.   As time lead on, so did the tales of empty association.

Thank you for affirming your dislike of how I communicate through my writing and wished I would have “just called you”.  For I know, within myself I am a writer, who has kept this skill at bay.  I no longer can afford to sway from who I am inside or how I communicate from the depths of my soul.  This is who I am, when conflict arises or when I feel trapped-writing what I feel is my only salvation into my higher self.

Thank you for showing me what determination of self-love looks like.  You have shown me how to rise above any negative judgments, with goodwill as a merry ol’ soul.  Although your acronym made no sense as Flow, Light, Love…fly-I see the gift that I thought was for you is really a gift for me as: First Love Yourself.

6 thoughts on “Confessions from a Reverend”

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