Questions & Confessions of a Reverend, Part 1: Thoughts of the Beast ^^^666^^^

Since last summer being involved with a death of a man whom was a victim of a shooting and working in a clinical hospital setting Something much bigger than myself has come forth.  I’m still piecing together what should make sense and fear does strike me.

What if I’m committing social suicide of religions?  What happens if I’m ending my career before it really begins?  Who do I serve?

I serve the Divine within me-to do good to myself and do good to others.  I have not committed a crime-or a crime that has been caught other than speeding.  I’m not a perfect person, but I no longer wish to be a meek person either.  I am concerned about the meek inheriting the earth.  Are the meek the true sign of the Beast?  How could any of the Divines creatures be a reject to God (Allah sev)?

In order to be “saved by God” does that mean there will no longer be human life on earth?  Will there be an eternity in the kingdom of heaven; which is really just a vibration of quantum physics?

What if I have a secret doorway to the gate of Lucifer?  What happens if I can teach souls to come back into the light of God’s love from the depths of hell and the void?  What happens if I have a song that open’s hell’s gate and it interferes with our young children who are Empaths or early learners of being Psychic?

“Help Save US” CopyRight Katie Yavuz March 2015

I have this voice that I have concealed within me-the D-E-V-I-L? Does it live within me?  As much as I love the Divine Holy Spirit and I have learned early in my life not to feed this other side of myself could I be suppressing the evil from within me?  Will I do harm if I let this toxicness out of my body to share with the world?

Maybe, we have all done unspeakable acts that are not good to others humans or animals or insects? Once we learn not to feed ourselves to torment others are we forgiven?

I’m speaking to release what is trapped from within me.  Maybe if I release this from within my body will heal? I have been resisting and denying others to give me healings.  As I repent for my own sins.  The Divine created these challenges within my life, within my body.  I believe in the true Divine nature to take it from me when I reach the level of true belief.  Does this make me a Christian Science believer?  I would say no, I don’t believe in that religion fully either.

My collectible belief’s are bringing forth a new thought process that both scares me and one that I feel very close to need to release from my body within to be relieved of the internal torment.  Not tournament from anything really evil.  Holy spirit is within me and the conflicts of judgement and anger have begun to subside.

I feel relieved of any false belief of depression right now also.  There has been a huge shift in my presence within my marriage since being part of an Endow group through the Roman Catholic Church.  This eight week class was on “Letters to Women” from Pope John Paul II.  I will begin on Youtube this fall my thoughts of this with New Thought as it’s sister in belief system.

All religions are beautiful and at within there words they also threaten and create so much condemnation and fear that they give me so much polarity in my beliefs.

The Beginning of who I am.

The Beginning of who I am.

I thought I would share who I am with you all…I know my writing has flaws & I overcome difficulties in life nearly daily; maybe that topic should be my next novel?

Here I am in my mid 30’s, only now to discover all that I have suppressed within doesn’t serve me!  It has served others to keep me small.  This has done nothing but extinguish self-confidence or self-esteem in a destructive manner.

Recalling the start of these feelings and thoughts allows a place for healing.  Without retracing one’s steps you or I cannot live true to our hearts soulful purpose.  With that thought in mind those suppressed experiences; emotions don’t serve our community or the world to make a better place at all!

How does one allow them-selves to be exactly who they are? How is one to open up to tell just a faction of pieces in one’s life to feel an extended connection with others (?).  No wonder there has been a large fraction of our youth to commit suicide within a short cycle of this year and of year’s pasts.  It not only happens with the youth but also with the control of adult peers.  Connected to the same circle or not, behaviors of put downs to others needs to STOP!

Some say it’s the game of competition; one that can out smart their opponents by crippling their mind.  Is that who you want to be in this life time?  Do you know one or maybe you are one of these assholes or cunts who enjoy pushing another person to a breaking point? OMG, a Reverend using such language? OMG, yes!  Taking on a role of the Higher Self with a connection to God/the Divine doesn’t mean we have lost touch with the real world.

Foul language is not part of my daily practice.  However, it does grab your attention to know I am serious and being “real with you”, does it not?

Did you know I’ve been studying for the last four years of seven being disabled with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome?  I’ve had more than my share of car accidents and from multiple asthma attacks as a child, lack of blood flow and near death has kept me on a side saddle of life…Until now!  Thank God for my love of “never giving up” and a lot of determination I have overcome several obstacles that professionals said I would never be able to do.

Being at the ass end of someone’s put downs only proves the mind control behavior of the individuals who bestows a part-time hex over another person’s soul.  It can cripple the person or just take some time to wear off.

The movement of the mind can collect these negative beliefs.  Even a person in a soulful journey, can get tripped up from any negative attention.  Depression, anxiety aches and pains, lack of focus, loss of desire to achieve a goal or dream, begin to fantasies that life would be better if they ended their life.  Why stay if nobody likes me?  Our own thought process from one or two little flare-up’s can spiral into another realm of reality for someone who is put-down or ignored on a continually basis.

What happens if you suggested a comment and then latter discover that you realized you shouldn’t have said it?  Duh, you reach out to that person and not only tell them you’re sorry, but give them a reason why you did it in the first place.  Really, it does make a difference!

My mother, bless her…she was gifted with the attitude of tell those people to go Fuck themselves!  God is the only one who judges and the only one that it should matter to you.  So, as I take a deep breath and revisit the words I have spoken to others, I know I have repented my sins and asked for forgiveness already.  As a wonderful spiritual teacher reminds me; “Who do you serve (?) God/the Divine or that other person?”

Through the power of prayer or any 12 step program of something alike, I know you too can forgive yourself of any wrongful judgments you have cast out to others and with the same reflection back to yourself.

I can help you with forgiveness prayers where to start within yourself or even with House Blessings “Unite & Reclaim Your Space” in the South Metro Denver Area, Colorado.

Become an Uplifting Reality for a cause for others.  STOP destroying other’s self-esteem! STOP office bullying even if its behinds someone else’s back.  Your words have power and intention behind them.  Even if you don’t speak it to that person, your energy tells them.  If you don’t like something about that person do the adult thing; either go direct and let them know with something positive in your notes or say NOTHING at all if you can’t say anything nice!

If you find this interesting please respond.

Thank you! Many Blessings Rev. Katie Yavuz

Certified “safeTalk” suicide alertness for everyone. March 2014

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